The "C" Word...

So, I start this blog as a place to rant and rave about political stuff.  Yanno, the stuff that people don't want to see on Facebook.  Mainly because, well, if you don't share their opinion, then you're WRONG!!  *eyeroll*

Anyway, since starting this blog, (that I never really used as a place to vent  about politics...lol) we have had some serious happenings take place in our family.  My sister was diagnosed with cancer.  Yeah..that UGLY "C" word!  It invaded someone close to me and I hate it for that!!!  My baby sister has Endometrial (Uterine) cancer.  :(  She is 42.

In January of 2012, she was diagnosed following some tests.  A couple weeks later she was having surgery, a complete hysterectomy.  That took care of the tumors and nodules on her reproductive organs, but she still had many throughout her abdomen, and a couple on her bladder.  They couldn't get them all.  So, the next step was Chemo.   Her first round consisted of 6 treatments.  That shrunk them slightly and there didn't  seem to be any new ones.  A short time later she ended up in the emergency room for pain and stuff, and after a ct scan showed more cancer, she started a second round.  Another 6 treatments of the strongest chemo and what did it do???  Nothing.  She keeps getting worse and that damn cancer just keeps taking over her body!  Causing her pain and discomfort.  

I hate this!  I am a million miles away from her!  Well, ok...1000 but it might as well be a million because that's what it feels like!!  Not that I can do anything, but it's so difficult being so far away from someone you love when they are hurting.  Physically and emotionally.  

I hate that she is going through this.  She is in pain and it's hard to watch her struggle to walk....because the tumors have grown so large they are pressing on nerves!  It's hard to watch her eat like a bird most of the time.  Food either nauseates her or it goes right through her.  She has a strong support system in the family....but we can all only do so much.  We can't take her pain away.  Lord knows I would if I could.  She pops morphine like candy and yet STILL has pain.

If this is this difficult for me, I can only imagine how she feels.  Even then I don't think I could even fully understand.  I so want to take the pain away from her.  I so want to tell her that it's all going to be ok and that is is all a dream and she (we all!) are going to wake up and things will be all well and fine.  I so want to do anything I can to make her feel good.  I love my baby sister.  If I could snap my fingers and wish this all way, I would do it in a heartbeat!  But God has a plan.  I have learned not to question His plans, but I still can't help but wonder...why?  Yanno??  

Cancer sucks.  :(

A Great Question...

"Do you seriously believe that God will judge a person for loving someone of the same sex but will not judge you for hating someone you have never even met??"

Well, Hello There...

Well, hello there...and welcome!  :)

Ok....so let me begin.....

I have become somewhat interested in the happenings in politics.  Don't get me wrong, there are some things that I could give a rat's behind about!  But some of the major issues, that were big during the election, (and are still big issues!)  have been weighing on my head and my heart for awhile.  I guess you could say that I feel passionately about them.  What is the problem with that you ask??  Nothing at all.  Well, other than the fact that it seems that my feelings, opinions, etc, are different from a lot of people I know.  Does that make me wrong and them right and/or vice versa?  Not at all!  It means we have differing opinions.  Again you ask what is the problem with that?  If I only knew.  My guess is there are many people who feel as passionately about certain issues as I do.  And while that should be no big deal, here's the problem I have with that.  I can read an article.  It can lean towards the Republican side OR the Democratic side and I am ok with that.  I form my OWN thoughts and opinions about that.  Hey, I'm a 48 year old woman....semi intelligent....more than capable of forming  my own thoughts!!  Imagine that!!   Yeah, ok....I will admit that I have got pretty steamed about some topics before!!  Howeverrrrrrrr, when I read some of the statements people make, I literally feel sick to my stomach.  I mean  it's one thing to disagree, but to get mean and hateful and angry because someone else feels a different way!?!  Well, it's disturbing and disheartening.  Of course I can't keep quiet if I feel strongly about something,  quite often I will add my two cents and end up "stirring the pot".  Unintentionally, of course.  Seriously.    

So....lately I have been kind of ranting and raving a leetle teenie tiny bit (ok, maybe more than that!!) on Facebook.  Apparently, that is not the place to rant and rave about politics.  Who knew?  My daughter said I should take time off of Facebook.  HA!!  Not hardly going to happen!!!  My husband said that I should start a blog and vent and rant and rave there.  Hmmm.  

So, here I am.  I can't tell you what I will end up spewing about in here.  I can't tell you that it will all be sunshine, rainbows and bunnies.  But I can tell you that what I write in here will be from my heart.  Hey, who knows....I might even make you smile or laugh once in awhile!!  :)