Humor is Good Medicine....

I was scrolling through Facebook today, as usual, and I came across a post that one of my friends had shared.  It was "The 19 Most Romantic Things That Happened in 2013".  Most were photos, but there were a few videos.  I came across one, and for many reasons, it made me think of my sister, Nikki.  I will post the video on here at the end of this post, and when you see it you might think, WHY would a video of a husband doing something so romantic for his wife, something to make her laugh,  during her chemo treatments remind me of my sister.  Well, I will tell you.  

He wanted to make her laugh during a very rough time.  

When Nikki spent her last few weeks in the hospital, I wanted her to laugh.  I was, as I called myself, her "comic relief".  (Weird, I know...lol)  I don't know if she actually thought I was funny or not or if she was laughing at/with me to appease me.....but I tried anyway.  I knew....we ALL knew...that she was going to die and, trust me, that is a terrible thing to "wait" for.  I didn't want her to spend her every waking minute with us, being sad or feeling blue or seeing us all cry!  You know?  Of course we WERE sad and of course we DID cry!  And that was ok, too!   But when I could, I tried to be funny....to make her smile and even laugh.  To help her forget, if even for a few minutes (or even seconds) her inevitable fate.

In the beginning, it was easier to do that because she was more conscious.  But as the weeks went on, she was asleep more and more, or "medicated".  But I knew she was well aware of her surroundings.  I knew she could hear us talking and I still wanted her to smile.  Did she?  Yes and no.  Not always that we could see....but I know she was smiling on the inside.  She was probably laughing at how incredible silly we all were, and that's ok....we were!! 

I think that some people don't think it's "right" to laugh or be funny when a loved one is suffering/sick/dying.  Maybe it's not.  Or maybe it's not "right" for that person or family.  I believe it was right for our family and I believe it was right for Nikki.  There was a time and a place, of course.  I don't think I ever crossed a line of inappropriateness.  Everyone has their way of dealing.  Mine is with humor.  

So, this is the video that got me thinking....watch it.  It's not the same situation....but it's very cool indeed.  :)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FF_m6HBPufA#t=10

On the Verge...

Verge of tears.  Again.  I am so tired of this.  And to top it off, it feels like some days I have to walk on egg shells around here.  Do you know how difficult that is when your emotions are on a roller coaster to begin with?  Keep it together, Michelle.....keep it together.  I just gotta keep telling myself that.