And by gone, I mean passed away. Not gone to the store, or gone for a walk, etc. She's REALLY gone. I think because I have lived away from Fredericton, and my family, for so long, I got used to not being near them, not having them around, and for them not having me being really much of a part of their lives. That is the reality. So, even though I spent a lot of time with her during her illness, and was constantly with her for the last few weeks of her life, sometimes it still just doesn't seem real.
I mean...I KNOW she died (I still hate that word!!!) and I know that she's not coming back. But like tonight, for instance, I am on Facebook playing Bingo and chatting to a friend and scrolling pages and I see the Nicole Lee Price - R.I.P page we made and I opened it up and looked at the photos of her on there and it hit me like a ton of bricks....and I said to myself (as a chill went through my body) "she is gone, Michelle!!"
Is this normal after losing a loved one?
All I know is that it sucks. I mean, I am happy that she is pain free, not suffering, in Heaven...but I miss my baby sista. :(
*tear*
Edit: I posted this picture on Facebook back in '08 and this is the thread that followed. Soooo Nikki....lol
Michelle I feel the same way about my mom. I keep thinking I just haven't talked to her in awhile, since she lived out of town. She is gone, and son of a bitch--it hurts like hell.
ReplyDeleteYep...that's exactly how it feels! Like I just haven't talked to her in awhile. :(
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