Talk the Talk...

"Sometimes family members don't talk about their grief to each other because the relationships are so close, and there is so much raw pain.  Sometimes siblings don't talk about their deceased brother or sister because they are afraid of causing pain and upset to each other or to their parents."

I read that while surfing around blogs about cancer and losing siblings and family members to cancer.  I thought it was interesting because that's one thing we do, we ALL talk about Nikki. :) 

I was in Fredericton for a little over a week and there were many conversations about Nikki.  We had some serious ones but mostly we just talked about her to remember her because it feels good! Sure, we are sad that she isn't here with us anymore.  But she is with us.....yanno?  She will forever be with each one of us...in our heart.  

I hope that we will always talk about her, remember her, laugh about some silly things she said or did, and even cry for her.  Nikki, whether she knew it or not, brought us all closer.  Would I prefer it it she were here with us, enjoying all this bonding??  Absolutely!!!  But, sadly, that's not possible.  So, I will take comfort in knowing that she is in a good place, watching over us and smiling.  

AND.....we all know.....she is probably snapping her fingers with her diva attitude saying something like, "Oh yeah, I'm good! Uh huh!!"   :)